Turn around...

Suddenly,
I had realized that I hadnt care about those who cared about me so much...
I only cared about those who were in front of me...
I tried to catch them... Tried to be with them...
And I didnt realize that there's a lot of ppl behind me...
Supporting me... Helping me...

Sorry my friends,
I didnt mean to keep anything from ya..
I just couldnt find the words to say...
I knew that you guys had your own things to worry about...
So I rather keep it myself than making you guys frustrated...

Lastly,
To all the ppl I know....

FRIENDS FOREVER !!

Tears..

Tears...
Droppin everyday...

Heart...
Get hurt every minute...

Happiness...
Leaving me every sec...

Would I be happy again?

The Climb - Hannah Montana

* Life's just a climb

I can almost see it

That dream I'm dreaming but

There's a voice inside my head sayin

You'll never reach it

Every step I'm taking

Every move I make feels

Lost with no direction

My faith is shaking

but I

I Gotta keep trying

Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be an uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing

The chances I'm taking

Sometimes might knock me down but

No I'm not breaking

I may not know it

But these are the moments that

I'm gonna remember most yeah

Just gotta keep going

And I

I gotta be strong

Just keep pushing on cz

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be an uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb (yeah)

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be an uphill battle

Sometimes you gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb (yeah yeah ea ea)

Keep on moving

Keep climbing

Keep the faith baby

It's all about It's all about

The climb

Keep the faith

Keep your faith

Whoa a oh oh

Merdeka performance 09

A Merdeka performance at Boulevard...

Not in it bt at the huge parking lot near Boulevard...

This is my first performance in the band...

Yea really in it... ^^

And so it's the first time I wear band uniform and play Clarinet in a performance...

I've waited for this for a very long time and finally...

Wuuhuu !! Haha.. Blekx.. xp

So happy !! Haha...

Oh yea.. Thanks Jia Wen (sl) and my seniors !! ^^

Here's some picx...

Enjoy !!!

Me, VK n Dang... (the cgs)
Tommy (act cool) and me... Hanim, what are you doin back there?

Vero and me...

Hanim and me !! *.*

Me and Alina.. Huge crowd hey?

Alina and me !!

Alina and me.. Again.. xp

Michelle and me..

Me and Chelle.. with my Clarinet... ^^

Me and Pik Jeng (the conductor)...

Lost...

I feel like I'm lost...
Lost in the middle of nowhere...
Trying to gt myself out...
Out of this meaningless life...

Everything seems going on pretty great...
That's only what you see...
Until you truely feel what's really going on...
You'll know it isn't that great at all...

Friends and family...
That's all I've got...
No dreams no target...
Living in an aimless life...

I've no idea why I'm writing this...
It's nothing but some words in english...
A post with no meaning...
How weird...

Well,
If you ask me what happen or what's going on..
I think I wont be able to answer that...
Cz me too have no idea what's going on...


~End~

@.@ ????

I've Failed...

I'm useless...

I'm nothing...

Spain Appreciation Dinner Pics !!!

* Wanna see more pics, scroll down to see the slide show I've made !!! Enjoy !! *

Sibu, I'm coming !!!

Hi bloggy !!! Long time didn't update lu !! ^^
Finally gt time le.. Hahax...

Hmm, come back to my topic now.... XP
Well, you might think that why I'm so excited about going to "Sibu"..
Hahax... Tell ya, I'm going with band for state level competition da second time !!
Hehe.. Kinda happy leh !!!
Just came back from Spain and now Sibu !!! Haha...
Cool !! Travelling all the time...
But for my studies... It's kinda baaaaadddd.... Hahax..

Anyway, this time we are well-prepared...
We're ready for this...
We waited... And finally it's here !!!!
We trained from morning till night...
Under the hot sun and under the rain...
Just for this... And with a dream --- National Champs

15 years...
Band members including Pn Soh waited for this award for 15 years...
It's nt just us going to compete...
We're bringing 15 years of seniors in CH band and a same dream...
We've tried everything...
Everything we can for this dream of all CH band members...
We are the dream team...
We can do it !!!
National Champs or nt ... It depends on us !!!

Okay...
To be National Champs we have to go through State level first...
So what's important right now is State level ..
This year gt lots of teams competing.. Even RRSS..
So CH band jia you ba !! It's nt all about competing bt to enjoy...
I believe that we can make a good show that day !!

Jia you CH Band !!!

We can do it !!!

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One band one sound

One heart one soul !!!

A post dedicated to Patrick Chang ^^

This post is for one of our cg trainer --- Patrick... ^^
I promised to write him a post before he left...
So here it is !!! Hehe ^^

So about Patrick... Hmm... Lets see...
Well, he's a great guy !!
Always help ppl to solve their problems !!!

Always know the rite thing to say at the rite time.. ^^
He's funny too..
In cg he always makes us all laugh..

And makes us all enjoy the practices very much !!! Haha.. XD
He's a cg trainer and so he knows each and everyone of us !!!
He knows it more than anyone else does in band !!!

When we gt some problems in cg..

Sure he's the first to come and help...
Maybe he's better to talk to... Hehe ^^
He wrote letters for 12 of us the night before he left...
I think almost everyone cried after reading it !! ^^
Haha...

Msg to Pat:
There's hundreds and thousands, millions and billions of thank you I wanna say it to you !!!

Cz you're the one who always comfort me when I was down..
I wont forget what we had promised each other !!
"Stay happy and be confident !!! "
Oh ya, good luck in your studies there !!
We all here supporting ya !! Hehe ^^
Cant wait till you come back !!

August hey? Haha^^

Very fast de la !!! Hehe^^
Lastly, dont forget us o!!! Haha.. XP
*End*

Pat left for KL at 10 this morning !!
He went to school early in da morning to see us for the last time before he left..
Today at class I was like.. Erm.. Dont know la..
Kept watching at the time and say
" 9.30 le.. Pat boarded the plane le"
" 10.00 le.. Pat fly le "
" 12.00 le.. Pat reach le "
Haha... Weird hey ?? Haha.. XD
Well, no one can stay forever beside us rite?
So have to let go..
Everyone gt their own life...
He'll be back soon so just wait...
That day will come soon.. Or sooner than we thought !!
Hehe...

And
Finally,

Together we are one!!
Cg forever !!! ^^
*Huggies*

Spain !!! I love you !!!

Just a blink of eye, our trip is over...
Miss it so much, especially the cold weather... XD

Well, SPAIN.. haha.. Two words -- Love it !! :)

It all begins from......
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13th of April (Mon) ~
All band members in the 1st flight reach the airport at about 5am...
Do all the check in's and stuffs then fly lu !! Haha...
Reach KLIA in two hours time then fly to London...

Nt sure what the date is.. very confusing leh.. Haha...
Anyway, I had had a hard time during the 13 hours flight to london...
Oh no !! There's three rows in the plane..
The 1st and the 3rd row has three seats together then only the 2nd one gt 4 seats...
Then during the 13 hours flight I was in the 1st row...
Lee yii was sitting beside me, I was in the middle and the thing is...
A "stranger" sit outside man !!! It's so hard for me and Lee Yii to walk in and out !!!
Haiz... So we two just sit there for 13 hours and just went to the washroom once !!
Sigh... Bored !!! :( Haha...

*Reach london lu !! *
Erm.. I think it's about 4 or 5 pm in london...
All members in the 1st flight have to stay at london airport for 17 hours !!
Haha.. It's quite a long time bt.. Haiz.. Still very short la !! Sienz..
Hahax... XP At london airport leh.. Just eat, play and sleep...
Haha... Love the cold weather at london !!!
Drinking hot chocolate and the wind kept blowing...
Wah !! So relaxing !! Haha....

*17 hours had past* ~
We meet our 2nd flight buddies for about 5 minutes...
Cz they have to catch another flight to Madrid...
We give hugs to each other then say good bye again...
British Airways is very strict !!
Check here and there.. X-rays along the way.. (Scary)
Finally we've made it through....
"British Airways" sounds like very high class rite?
Well, when I walk into the plane bubble came out and said MH better !!
Much much better... Haha...
Luckily it's only 2 hours !! Haha.. XD

*Reach Madrid lu !!*
Gt our luggage and instruments....
Meet our 2nd flight buddies... Then all separate into 2 buses..
And start our journey to Murcia !! Haha..
Along the way... Hmm.. Nothing special.. Just big big field..
Haha.... :)
6 hours bye bye in the bus...

*We're at Murcia !!!*
Hmm, 6 hours.. quite fast...
We gt down to the bus then coaches, parents and teachers check in first..
Cz they're in the first El Churra.. We stood by the road waiting for our turn to check in...
While waiting... Lots of ppl pass by wearing costumes (almost all the same) walking here and there...
Dont know what were they celebrating... Haha...
They're quite friendly.. Some of them thought that we're Japanese.. Haha... XD
Oh finally we can go to our own hotel !!! Bt it's nt easy...
We walk about 200 metres to gt the the second El Churra...
Wuuhh... It's so tiring carrying our luggage... Haha...
When we reach there... Pn soh said the room's too small for four ppl...
Then she break us into two person in a room... And so my roommate is Chai Jie..
After sending our bags and stuffs into our room,
we walk another 200 metres to gt to the first hotel to have our dinner...
The food there huh.. Hmm, kinda weird on the first dinner bt after that ok le.. Hehe ^^
After dinner, another 200 metres to go back to our own hotel...
An incident happened in the lift made lots of ppl dont dare to use it... haha..
So we all use the stairs.. haha... The highest floor is the 5th floor so it's okay for all of us to take the stairs.. haha.. XP

*Life in Murcia !!*
First time Jogging till wanna die le.. So cold leh !! Haha...
Then our formation all change cz not enough space and bla bla bla...
Our meal time pretty weird leh..
# 9am - Breakfast
1pm - Lunch
9pm - Dinner #
Hahax... :) Our first performance was at a school... All cute kids wearing cute costumes...
Hahax... Anyway, the performance was great and fun...
Then gt three days' parade...
The road became longer by day... Haha... Bt it was fun...
All of the ppl in Murcia were friendly... I think we said "hola" during the parade more than a thousand times !! Haha... :)
Love the parade.. It was really fun... Bt on the second day of the parade cg met some difficulties cz of the strong wind... Bt we did finish it perfectly !! Haha....
On the last day of the parade... Everything was just perfect !! Haha...
Parade's over then it's time to leave Murcia !!!

*After 6 hours in the bus* ~
Reach Madrid... We stayed there for one night... My roommate was Hanim and Yee Yen...
Quite fun being in a room with them.. Haha...
We went shopping for the whole day... Then the second day we went to visit lots of places... until noon then go to the airport !! Haha.. :)

*2 hours to London*~
British Airways...

*At London*~
Same same... Stayed at the airport for 16 hours I guess..
Didn't sleep for the 16 hours... Cant sleep leh.. Dont know why...
Play cards, talk, drink, eat, shopping with friends.. Haha.. Quite fun..

*13 hours to KLIA*~
This time I sit in the middle row... bt I didnt stand up once during the whole flight.. Haha..
Maybe I'm too tired for nt sleeping at london and it's night time too !! So 13 hours just sit, eat, sleep, watch movies and listening to music.... Haha... 13 hours past pretty fast this time...

*At KLIA*~
Direct flight... Straight away fly back to Miri...

*At Miri* ~
(22/3) 10.30 am -- Wuu huu !!! So grand leh !!! 12 classes of students, prefects, and lion dance members !!
Haha... All welcoming us back !! Wow !!! Lots of ppl leh !! Kinda happy !! Haha.. :)

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That's all for the trip... The Hercules Award is just the begining for us in 2009...
We still gt a lot of work to go for state level and also national level !! Hope we can achieve what we want !!!

*(Phew.. What a long post !! Haha... Wait I still gt.. Be patient yea.. Sorry...)

One band One sound,

One heart One soul !!!

Up up Chung hua !!!

Unbelievable !!!!

* Ah !!! I cant believe it !! I'm going to Spain tomorrow !!! Wow !!! I'm super excited !! Haha.. Why izit so unbelievable?! Haha... Come I'll tell you !! Haha

Long time ago, well erm two years ago... Everytime I see Chung Hua I always remind myself.. "My future school" Then now I'm in it !! Chung Hua is my school now !! Then about Spain, I never thought about it... Cz when I'm in Chung Hua I chose BSMM.. And I joined band by accident... Haha.. XD

The Story :

I have been in chung hua like two or three months... Still very "nt close" with Chung Hua... Scared those "black coated ppl" (prefects) Haha... So that morning when I'm in the car, almost reach school already I found out that i forgot to bring my tie and name tag !! And I know after 6.30 there will be lots of prefects out there !!! Then I suddenly thought of I have PJ shirt and pants in my bag !! Wow lucky me !!! Then I quickly change it lor.. Didnt think much !! Haha.. Then when I walked in class I saw Alvin Sim and Shi Hien wearing PJ shirts too !! Then I asked them why.. Then said gt Nonami camp (music camp) !! I rmb that that day gt assembly so gt prefects in class... My class prefects were Siaw Yie and Jane Chin (love them) also band members !! haha.. Siaw Yie came up to me and asked "Brenda you too going to nonami camp? " Then I was shocked and I asnswered no (of course la for a none band member)... Then after assembly dont know why I went to find Siaw Yie and asked "Can I join nonami camp?" So that's how I'm in band !! Haha... Weird bt lucky !! haha.. Otherwise I wont have a big caring family and wont go to SPAIN !! Haha !!!

I felt that I'm the blessed one !! God is always beside me !! Helping me to make a wise decision !! HE brought me in band and let me have lots of friends and gt a chance to go overseas !! Wow !! All this are... I dont know.. Haha.. Just very happy with it !! Hehe..

Well it's late now.. Gtg lu !! Tomorrow have to wake up at 4.. Needa reach the airpost at 5 am.. Sigh !! Well , wish us luck !! Hope we can gt the award back !! Jia you CH Band !!

Lastly,

# BUENA SUETE CH BANDA !! SOMOS LOS MEJORES !! PODEMOS HACERLO !!

One band One sound

One heart One soul !!!!

28/3 ~ Un dìa para recordar !!!

* I know I should post this long time ago.. Bt I'm kinda busy these days so, sorry la !! ^^

28/3 ~ FELIZ CUMPLEANOS A MÌ !!

HAPPY BITHDAY TO ME !! ^^

Huu !!! This year's Birthday leh still same day as my school's concert !! Haha.. Bt this year was different.. Nt like last year !! Everyone was busy preparing for the concert and only a few ppl rmb!! Bt this year... THIS YEAR !!! was DIFFERENT !!! I was touched and happy !!! ^^ Especially by band members !!! And of course my best buddy Kitty !! Hehe.. ^^ Let me tell you what had happened that day !!!

Morning~

Nth special.. Just went to violin lesson.. Haha.. :P

Afternoon~

Yi Lian kept sms me and asked me to go to Parkson !! That time I thought they just planned to go shopping then together go set our hair for concert !! Haha.. I didnt expect that they would help me to celebrate.. Cz you know.. I'm Nt very good with them before... Last time CG always divide into two groups... Me and Yi Lian them always separate.. Bt I couldnt believe that Vian Kuan, Vian Wong, Sheau Ting, Lee Yii, Yi Lian, Chai Jie and of course including Pat and Seng Kin helped me to celebrate !!! They bought me a cake !!! Wow !!! ^^ Touched !!

Thank you !! My cg family !! ^^

MUCHO GRACIAS MI FAMILIA !!!

Night ~

School concert lu !!! Went to the stadium with Sheau Ting them !!! Some of my friends wished me happy birthday.. And gave me presents !! Hehe ^^.. Then we practised the flower thingy then band played cha cha cha lor... Then Gali said play concert B flat cz tunning nt good !! (Here's the part !!!) I was very very very SHOCKED when band suddenly play birthday song !!! Ah !!! Cz before they played the birthday song, they were practising and suddenly just ..... !! Ah !! I dont know how to say I just know I'm really shocked and touched !!! Too happy then I burst into tears !! Haha ^^ I know it's weird to cry bt I'm really really very very very very very happy !!! Thank you band members !!!

TE QUIERO A TODOS !!! I love you all !!!

# Actually I wanna write a post that day to end my birthday.. Who knows when I reached home it was already 12... After concert we had started our practices so cant online to update lor.. Haha... So that's all about my special day !! Hehe ^^ Now let you see some pics !! Hehe... Sorry, some of it are kinda blur..

Sheau Ting and me !! XD
Gali and me !!! :P

Me and Lee Yii !! :)

Me and Michelle !!! Hehe..

Angry at Jia lei cz I should to be taller than him.. Haha..

Me and Jia Lei.. Haha...

Me and Hanim !! ^^

Me and Yi Lian !! :)

Me and Ah Ben !!

Ian and me !! Haha...

Me and Tina.. ^^

Alvin and me !! :)

Kurt and me !! Hehe ^^

My presents !! Haha...

My presents again !! Haha....

Well that's all for now !! See ya !! Hasta La Vista !!

Busy dayz...

Wow!!This whole week's holiday(or should i say nt holiday)was totally busy man !!
Everyday band practise from 7.30 am till 9.00 pm !! EVERYDAY !!
Bt it's kinda fun !! Can see all your friends there...
Play, talk, fight, sleep, rest, practise together !! Haha.. ^^
It felt really great though it had been a very tiring week !!

During this whole "band" week, lots of things happened..
SAD THINGS & HAPPY THINGS
I've been through lots of things this whole week..
And one thing that I had found out----
CG must must must be strong !!!! Cannot cry everytime liao o!
Though it's really tough, hard, tired plus we dont have a proper coach-Mr Oun
Bt we still have Seng Kin and Pat !!! CG must jia you o!
As long as we work hard everything will be fine !!
JIA YOU JIA YOU JIA YOU !!!
And instruments de...
Wow !!! Nonami camp o !!! I saw lots of ppl crying in band B
because of that audition...
I felt that I'm very useless... Cz I cant help you guys...
Bt hey, all of you did it !!! Congratz !!
^^

Oh ya !! There's something I wanna Share !!!

THE CG FAMILY TREE !!
Seng Kin (grandpa)+Pat (grandma)+Simon (other grandpa)

Benny (daddy)+Ivy (mummy)

Sheau Ting
Chai Jie
Lee Yii
Ah Dang
Vivien Chai
Tommy
Brenda(me)
Tina
Yi Lian
Vivian Wong
Thariyah
Vivian Kuan

Well, that's cg family members !! Hehe ^^ That's all from me now !!!
Till the next time !!! :p

Exam !!!

Yo everyone !!!
Exam's here !!!
Good luck yea !!!
Jia youz !!!
After test 2gether go happy hour o !!!
Hahax...

Sot sot de me !!! XD

I cant blif it !!
Hahax...
Today band practice whole day sot sot de !! Hahax..
Kinda happy !! Crazy me !!
Wuu huu !!
It was like a new me !!
Hahax....
Cool man !!! I like it !!!
Being crazy also that fun !! XD
Now I understand why crazy ppl so happy !!
Hahax...
Wuu Huu !!!
Weeeeeeee !!!
Yeah !!!!
Hurray !!!!
Muahahax !!!
Muakaka !!!
Lolx...
Really sot le !!!!

Moody... Cz of friends ???

Sigh :(
Very moody these few days.
Cz of my friends??
Am I really going to give up??
Giving up two precious friendships at the same time !!!
That is so not me !!!
Should I do that?? Am I a bad person??
Am I a very useless friend??
Guess so.. Sigh :(

Two friends,
Trusted you guys...
Loved you guys...
But,
You guys had changed...
Not the T..., not the C... I knew..
Sadz.. T.T

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T...,
You're one of my best friend... I trusted you so much !!
We shared everything... There was no secrets between us..
When I told you my secrets, you were there listening...
Gave me advices, told me what to do...
Bt,
as the time past you started to change...
These few days, when I talked to you..
You just give me the same answer - "o"
That's all you could say??
Sigh :(

C...,
I gt nothing to say...
People wouldn't understand...
Cz you're so different compared with normal ppl...
I'm very sorry that I had hurt you badly...
I, too wanted to continue this friendship...
Bt, I cant... I don't know how !!!
I'm sorry..

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Sorry guys...
Maybe it's me who don't know how to appreciate friendship...
Maybe it's me who is thinking too much...
Maybe it's me who became bad...
Maybe it's my own problem...
Or maybe... Sigh :(
Nevermind...
Being together made us sad and frustrating...
Why don't we just leave each other alone???
It'll be better.... I guess...
Sigh :(

Sigh T.T

Very disappointed in you.. Tried to make up bt still.. Sigh T.T
I cant take it anymore !! Giving up this friendship is for our own good...
You'll be happier without me !!

Bye bye my friends !!

Bye bye STEFFI & AMOS !!

Sobs.. T.T.. You guys leave me once more !!

This time Steffi left one day after Amos..

I couldn't hang out with both of them before they left...

Sigh.. Well, I did hang out with both of them "together"..

Haha.. Kinda weird !!

Let me introduce them to you!!

Steffi first, haha... She's a very good friend of mine !!!

She's one of my best friends in primary school.

She's kinda cute !! Haha..

When I'm in primary school, she's the one who always comfort me when I'm sad,

accompany me when I'm alone, hold me when I'm going to fall,

show me the way when I'm lost..

I felt that I'm the blessed one to have her as a friend.

And Amos, also a friend of mine !! He was my AJK in the orientation..

So lucky to have him in my group !!

He's very famous at school !! Almost everyone in school knows him.. Haha..

He's a very good friend too !! Always encourage me to study

and let me know the true meaning of being a Christian..

He's kinda holy after he went to Australia..

And because of him I met a very great friend- Vivien Chai... Haha..

Well, I appreciate all those time we'd been together this few days !!

Sigh.. Two friends left..

Amos left yesterday !! And Stef's gonna leave today !!

I'll miss you two for sure !!

Well, I hope you guys can come back again soon !!!

Cant wait to see you guys again !!

Maybe will upload some pictures here !!

I'll come back when I gt those pictures ready !! Haha..